Comments on: Why Wait? 40 Days of OUR Bodies: Day 25 http://dyanavalentine.com/2009/why-wait-40-days-of-our-bodies-day-25/ Helping self-starters self-finish: one project at a time Wed, 21 Jul 2010 08:55:25 -0700 hourly 1 http://wordpress.org/?v=3.0 By: dyanavalentine http://dyanavalentine.com/2009/why-wait-40-days-of-our-bodies-day-25/comment-page-1/#comment-328 dyanavalentine Mon, 23 Nov 2009 23:44:44 +0000 http://dyanavalentine.com/?p=612#comment-328 Wagon, schmagon, M Arsenia: what matters is that you mean it and you shift your philosophy and even your language to support yourself and keep moving forward. Grandma's KNOW, don't they? Listen to the Angels and move your booty--NOW. Don't try, do it. NOW. I'm on your side. Call me and you can keep me on the phone while you DO IT. Now. For real. You made a strong and good daughter--listen to her:) Wagon, schmagon, M Arsenia: what matters is that you mean it and you shift your philosophy and even your language to support yourself and keep moving forward. Grandma's KNOW, don't they? Listen to the Angels and move your booty–NOW. Don't try, do it. NOW. I'm on your side. Call me and you can keep me on the phone while you DO IT. Now. For real. You made a strong and good daughter–listen to her:)

]]> By: marseniabrown http://dyanavalentine.com/2009/why-wait-40-days-of-our-bodies-day-25/comment-page-1/#comment-304 marseniabrown Wed, 18 Nov 2009 15:00:01 +0000 http://dyanavalentine.com/?p=612#comment-304 Congratulations, Dyana! I am excited to see your 40 Days celebration and also embarrassed with myself for falling off the wagon. I am better understanding the treachery of perfectionism...if I can't do everything right then I why bother doing anything! I feel disappointed and frustrated about not staying on task. Monkey mind distraction evolved into self criticism. I started to criticize myself for not being better at yoga at this point in my life, then for not being better at Tai Chi, then scolding myself for being lousy at things I once did as easily as breathing. I really hated what I'd become. I had begun to edit as I wrote, rather than free-write ("regurgi-writing" is what my daughter & I call it - just throw it all over the page) I withdrew from my schedule, wrote bitterly about my "loser-ness" in my journaling and put mundane tasks ahead of my personal work as an excuse to not care for myself. It is an insidious practice to use others' needs as an excuse to avoid tending to your own needs. Consciously watching myself become mired in this cycle I grew angry with myself and more discouraged. I have felt ashamed to drop the ball in our group, for not giving support to myself and each of us. Two things are helping me get my behind in gear: At my daughter's urging, I joined NaNoWriMo 2009. with her. (<a href="http://www.nanowrimo.org" rel="nofollow">www.nanowrimo.org</a>) We had last minute change-of-plans on the day before it began on Nov 1st, but we promised each other we wouldn't allow ourselves to make excuses. We packed up our laptops and carried them along to the out-of-town event we needed to attend so we could be ready to go on Nov 1st. The afternoon of NaNoWriMo Day 1, we sat on the patio, away from the chaotic family gathering with extension cords running to our laptops and typed away for two hours. I felt optimistic again. I loved sitting there in community doing what I love to do. I forced myself not to make it perfect. I laughed aloud at my cuckoo perfectionist tendencies as they arose. "Oh my god this sentence is not working! Why would anyone want to read this? I have to keep writing horrible stories with horrible sentences because I will suck if I write nothing!" Even now I am resisting the urge to backtrack and edit this comment, learning more about "forcing myself to allow". I have uncovered and recognize my fear of failing, my fear of justifying my own mediocrity. I spoke with my grandmother yesterday, 99 years old, will be 100 in May. She recently moved into a rehab facility to recover from broken hips. She told me about her day, about her physical therapy, her occupational therapy and then how she takes walks around the facility to keep herself busy until bedtime. Keeps herself busy?! Wow! I have angels all around me telling me it's ok to start-over and also showing me that I really can't come up with a good excuse to quit because none exists. I've got to keep trying. Generations on both sides of me are showing the love and encouraging me to keep picking myself up. Well, my daughter's way of showing the love is by yelling, "Mom! Stop being such a freak and just do it! You'll be happy!" OK, I am stopping being such a freak now. Your open honesty has helped me reveal this fearful, painful process to myself and now to you. Thank you. - MB Congratulations, Dyana! I am excited to see your 40 Days celebration and also embarrassed with myself for falling off the wagon. I am better understanding the treachery of perfectionism…if I can't do everything right then I why bother doing anything! I feel disappointed and frustrated about not staying on task. Monkey mind distraction evolved into self criticism. I started to criticize myself for not being better at yoga at this point in my life, then for not being better at Tai Chi, then scolding myself for being lousy at things I once did as easily as breathing. I really hated what I'd become. I had begun to edit as I wrote, rather than free-write (“regurgi-writing” is what my daughter & I call it – just throw it all over the page) I withdrew from my schedule, wrote bitterly about my “loser-ness” in my journaling and put mundane tasks ahead of my personal work as an excuse to not care for myself. It is an insidious practice to use others' needs as an excuse to avoid tending to your own needs. Consciously watching myself become mired in this cycle I grew angry with myself and more discouraged. I have felt ashamed to drop the ball in our group, for not giving support to myself and each of us. Two things are helping me get my behind in gear: At my daughter's urging, I joined NaNoWriMo 2009. with her. (http://www.nanowrimo.org) We had last minute change-of-plans on the day before it began on Nov 1st, but we promised each other we wouldn't allow ourselves to make excuses. We packed up our laptops and carried them along to the out-of-town event we needed to attend so we could be ready to go on Nov 1st. The afternoon of NaNoWriMo Day 1, we sat on the patio, away from the chaotic family gathering with extension cords running to our laptops and typed away for two hours. I felt optimistic again. I loved sitting there in community doing what I love to do. I forced myself not to make it perfect. I laughed aloud at my cuckoo perfectionist tendencies as they arose. “Oh my god this sentence is not working! Why would anyone want to read this? I have to keep writing horrible stories with horrible sentences because I will suck if I write nothing!” Even now I am resisting the urge to backtrack and edit this comment, learning more about “forcing myself to allow”. I have uncovered and recognize my fear of failing, my fear of justifying my own mediocrity. I spoke with my grandmother yesterday, 99 years old, will be 100 in May. She recently moved into a rehab facility to recover from broken hips. She told me about her day, about her physical therapy, her occupational therapy and then how she takes walks around the facility to keep herself busy until bedtime. Keeps herself busy?! Wow! I have angels all around me telling me it's ok to start-over and also showing me that I really can't come up with a good excuse to quit because none exists. I've got to keep trying. Generations on both sides of me are showing the love and encouraging me to keep picking myself up. Well, my daughter's way of showing the love is by yelling, “Mom! Stop being such a freak and just do it! You'll be happy!” OK, I am stopping being such a freak now. Your open honesty has helped me reveal this fearful, painful process to myself and now to you. Thank you. – MB

]]> By: dyanavalentine http://dyanavalentine.com/2009/why-wait-40-days-of-our-bodies-day-25/comment-page-1/#comment-207 dyanavalentine Mon, 19 Oct 2009 02:54:28 +0000 http://dyanavalentine.com/?p=612#comment-207 Yahoo, M Arsenia--way to raise the bar and honor what your art is calling for. This is fantastic! Yahoo, M Arsenia–way to raise the bar and honor what your art is calling for. This is fantastic!

]]> By: Why Wait? 40 Days of OUR Bodies: Day 25 — Dyana Valentine | Triathlon Leisure Knowledge http://dyanavalentine.com/2009/why-wait-40-days-of-our-bodies-day-25/comment-page-1/#comment-202 Why Wait? 40 Days of OUR Bodies: Day 25 — Dyana Valentine | Triathlon Leisure Knowledge Sun, 18 Oct 2009 19:06:36 +0000 http://dyanavalentine.com/?p=612#comment-202 [...] Read the original post: Why Wait? 40 Days of OUR Bodies: Day 25 — Dyana Valentine [...] [...] Read the original post: Why Wait? 40 Days of OUR Bodies: Day 25 — Dyana Valentine [...]

]]> By: marseniabrown http://dyanavalentine.com/2009/why-wait-40-days-of-our-bodies-day-25/comment-page-1/#comment-200 marseniabrown Sun, 18 Oct 2009 12:53:45 +0000 http://dyanavalentine.com/?p=612#comment-200 Hi Dyana,<br>I am enjoying a soothing increase in energy - better sleeping, calmer mind, looser back - and added afternoon yoga after Ms. Angela's post. Also, I realized after the second day of sitting down to 1000 words that I was writing a mix of journaling and creative writing in the same batch. It was somewhat unsatisfying as my mind wandered back and forth between two necessary expressions. I opened two documents and let my mind wander between the pages as needed. Now I write 1000 words of journaling and a separate 1000 words of fiction toward my stories. I have a hunch that I'll be separating the different stories soon to write 1000 words toward each story.....I'm loving this! Yay, Dyana! Yay, All of Us! Hi Dyana,
I am enjoying a soothing increase in energy – better sleeping, calmer mind, looser back – and added afternoon yoga after Ms. Angela's post. Also, I realized after the second day of sitting down to 1000 words that I was writing a mix of journaling and creative writing in the same batch. It was somewhat unsatisfying as my mind wandered back and forth between two necessary expressions. I opened two documents and let my mind wander between the pages as needed. Now I write 1000 words of journaling and a separate 1000 words of fiction toward my stories. I have a hunch that I'll be separating the different stories soon to write 1000 words toward each story…..I'm loving this! Yay, Dyana! Yay, All of Us!

]]> By: dyanavalentine http://dyanavalentine.com/2009/why-wait-40-days-of-our-bodies-day-25/comment-page-1/#comment-199 dyanavalentine Sun, 18 Oct 2009 12:21:45 +0000 http://dyanavalentine.com/?p=612#comment-199 Alisa: are you saying triathlon in 2010 for you?!<br><br>Maria: thanks for joining the love here--what will you take on with your inspiration? <br><br>M Arsenia: way to take it to heart. How did you double your output, specifically? <br><br>SO amazed by you wonderful women! Alisa: are you saying triathlon in 2010 for you?!

Maria: thanks for joining the love here–what will you take on with your inspiration?

M Arsenia: way to take it to heart. How did you double your output, specifically?

SO amazed by you wonderful women!

]]> By: marseniabrown http://dyanavalentine.com/2009/why-wait-40-days-of-our-bodies-day-25/comment-page-1/#comment-198 marseniabrown Sun, 18 Oct 2009 11:20:51 +0000 http://dyanavalentine.com/?p=612#comment-198 Angela, you are a light! Early into this commitment the temptation to "slack-off-then-play-catch-up" was looming. Your story encouraged me to push over the hump and double my output! ROCK ON TRIATHLON MAMA! Angela, you are a light! Early into this commitment the temptation to “slack-off-then-play-catch-up” was looming. Your story encouraged me to push over the hump and double my output! ROCK ON TRIATHLON MAMA!

]]> By: Why Wait? 40 Days of OUR Bodies: Day 25 — Dyana Valentine | SwagSodDope LIVE http://dyanavalentine.com/2009/why-wait-40-days-of-our-bodies-day-25/comment-page-1/#comment-197 Why Wait? 40 Days of OUR Bodies: Day 25 — Dyana Valentine | SwagSodDope LIVE Sat, 17 Oct 2009 18:25:32 +0000 http://dyanavalentine.com/?p=612#comment-197 [...] The rest is here: Why Wait? 40 Days of OUR Bodies: Day 25 — Dyana Valentine [...] [...] The rest is here: Why Wait? 40 Days of OUR Bodies: Day 25 — Dyana Valentine [...]

]]> By: maria rosa http://dyanavalentine.com/2009/why-wait-40-days-of-our-bodies-day-25/comment-page-1/#comment-196 maria rosa Sat, 17 Oct 2009 15:30:04 +0000 http://dyanavalentine.com/?p=612#comment-196 Angela, it's wonderful!! Once again, I'm just starting to make the gym my daily routine. You are my new inspiration to add on something else more challenging. Angela, it's wonderful!! Once again, I'm just starting to make the gym my daily routine. You are my new inspiration to add on something else more challenging.

]]> By: clearwriter http://dyanavalentine.com/2009/why-wait-40-days-of-our-bodies-day-25/comment-page-1/#comment-195 clearwriter Sat, 17 Oct 2009 01:57:32 +0000 http://dyanavalentine.com/?p=612#comment-195 Angela, you are awesome! Way to go! I haven't been in the water for a proper swim since I was 11, but maybe, just maybe I could pull this off for 2010. You're an inspiration! Angela, you are awesome! Way to go! I haven't been in the water for a proper swim since I was 11, but maybe, just maybe I could pull this off for 2010. You're an inspiration!

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